The Non-Blogger Blogs Again

Hello. I've entered into the world of blogging yet again with great hope of being consistent this time! There's really a big part of me that wants to resist whatever our culture says is cool, for some reason. But when I look into it some, depending on what it is, I think to myself, "Hey, this is pretty cool!" Blogging being one of those things. I enjoy reading what other people have to say, most of the time, so I figure people will enjoy what I have to say sometimes. And if they don't, that's okay, too! So, what's up with the Wichmanns? I am currently a stay at home mommy since May of 2010. When all of my colleagues went back to school to get their rooms ready in August, I felt an emptiness inside... well, I felt a kick because I was about 6 months pregnant...so I decided to take up a course at the local community college. I thought I had to pick up 2 courses by July 2011 anyway to recertify my K-6 teaching certification. I thought I was killing two birds with one stone because I would choose to take the only 2 courses I would need in order to enter into the Marriage and Family Counseling program. However, I thought wrong. I didn't have to take 2 courses to recertify by this coming July. How I misunderstood this, I don't know. So, in the Fall I took a challenging, but necessary class (if I ever want to go into Psychology/counseling)...the dreaded Statistics! I had to stop going to classes because of doctor's orders to lay around the house with my feet propped up. Thanks Doc! I have to finish up that course this semester now. What do I feel in my belly now? A rock. A heavy rock feeling because I have to finish this monster of a class that I started. The totally great thing about this is that I've proved to myself that I can do well. I've always secretly told myself that I'm not good at Math. Lies! The truth is that I really am smart and capable, and I can do Statistics. Priceless life lesson! I will soon be one course closer to achieving one of my dreams: becoming a licensed counselor...so I can be an ear to those who need one and a guiding help in times of troubles, all the while pointing them to the only one who can truly heal hurts. My dear husband is working hard to provide and doing a really good job at it! He has weird hours and comes home tired, but somehow miraculously has energy to stay up for a family dinner, paperwork, and time to listen to me talk about the day's happenings. He is holding onto the hope when it comes to one day being able to take off with the network business. This requires him to have more time at home to work it. So, I'm holding onto hope along with him because I want him to do what he wants to set out to do. It's his heart's desire to be successful in a particular networking business that Donald Trump has his name stamped on. I believe he can do it. I know he can. Our little boy is so sweet and happy. Of course he has his moments of crying and screaming. Overall, he is extremely pleasant. He loves his feet, hands, mouth, his Mama and Dada, his Gammy, his Mr. Lion and Mr. Zebra pacifiers, mobile, rice cereal, bananas, hugs, kisses, a clean diaper. Life is good. I love praying for him: that he will grow in joy and happiness in the Lord from a young age on; that he will know the Lord personally from a young age, on; that those who don't have his best interest at heart will lose interest in perfect timing; that he will know he is loved and that he feels he is safe and secure; that he has peaceful sleep and dreams and during the day, a pleasant/content disposition with a good, patient temperment. He's almost 5 months! Around 3 months, I had some blues. I was irritated easily, grumpy, easily angered, cried easily, sad, frustrated, etc., etc. I was honest with myself, hubby and God about it. I truly was sorry and asked for divine help! It's been much, much better for the past 3 weeks! For anyone reading this who is struggling with down, stuck feelings of depression or bitterness in any way, this is the stuff that helps me: *praying/asking God for help to change/confessing my sins in that state of mind *asking for forgiveness from husband and baby boy (even though he can't respond, it felt good!) *getting outside the house every day, even if it's raining *listening to positive music- preferrably for me, music that lifts God up in worship, lifts my mood and mind up to better places too *Moving: exercising, stretching, walking, dancing, playing with the dogs, going to a store to browse *Plan: meals/grocery shopping, what I'm going to do for the week, where I'm going to volunteer, who I'm going to serve *Making the bed, painting nails, a long shower *Writing a list of what I'm thankful for *Laughing out loud: Example: Finding a TV series that makes me laugh; laughing at self *People: making sure I meet up with people during every week *working on relationships: with husband, family, friends *Praying for other people *Massage: the smells, the touch-everything about it *Being okay with slowing down, taking a breath, realizing I don't have to put pressure on myself to be a certain way but have grace for myself; that it's okay to try and fail and try again *Make sure there's just enough on the plate- not too much, not too little And here's the big one I'm needing to do right now: CREATING: finding one or two things I enjoy doing and doing it! I'm thinking about: *drawing/painting *running *reading/ book club *scrapbooking SO, now I'm verbally blahhhed all over this blog, I think I'm done for today!!! :) This was fun.