Chilling Out

I have a constant tug of war going on inside of me when it comes to my house. I want my house to be in perfect order. I have to remind myself to chill out. It really comes down to being task oriented versus people oriented sometimes. I have to set down the dirty dish, put off cleaning the floors, resist the urge to straighten stuff so it's perpendicular...and fully engage with my son and husband. Sometimes it seems like everything that needs to be done in the house, to the house, outside the house is screaming at me. Because I'm home all the time, I see what should be worked on and what needs to be fixed more often than when I was working. I have to be okay with a little mess. Breathe. Let things go just a bit. It can wait. People are far more important. In the big picture of life, it doesn't really matter if there's some clutter, or if the baseboards never get painted or a trillion other things I could name. Gotta keep perspective. Chores have to be done. Yet I find myself telling myself that it's okay for the chores to wait.